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Feeling the burn

kaeraelmt — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 11:30:27 +0000

So I am happy to say that it has been a good few days. I have been working out quite a bit. About 3-4 times a week. I know that I need to get it up to 6 but from nothing 3-4 is good. I am trying not to rush into it to much so i don’t hurt my self. I am taking a different approach this time. I am trying to drop my body fat 1st and then build my muscle. I know that while you drop your body fat you naturally will lose your muscle. Since it it harder to make muscle than it is to lose fat I figured that I should try and lose as much of my body fat as I can right now while maintaining the muscle that I have right now. We will see. Its all about trial and error. And with that said Alone competed this past weekend (9-13) and he took 2nd place!!!!! That is his best placement yet! I am really excited for him. He is going to take a year off which I think he is going to enjoy and then get back on it in 2010. I hope that I will be able to step on stage with him at that time. I know that that is a long time from now. Who knows what the future holds from here to then but I surly can dream right? So all things aside I am feeling better. I know I’m a little sick when I say it but I love working out. There is a sense of accomplishment when you are done.

So I just wanted to let everyone know how its going out here

Lots of love~

Kendra Rae

sweat and protein

kaeraelmt — Thu, 04 Sep 2008 13:12:47 +0000

Oh how i love the smell of salty sweat and bitter protein shakes………well the protein shakes not really ha ha ha! You HAVE to tell your self “you don’t drink it for the taste.” If you have ever had one you know exactly what I mean. So yep I’m a trying to get stuff back on track. I have been doing my best to get my nutrition back on track and working out again. I forget how good i feel after a work out. It is a rush that only that can provide. When i was looking at my self in the mirror today it made me happy that my body has not changed that much. I mean I can see where the body fat percentage has gone back up, but it has come back in a different way. I am not shaped like i used to be which i nice. I can still see the progress that me and Alone had done. I can deff say that I am happy at the thought of doing this again. Today made me realize how happy i was when i was working out all the time. How good i felt, how much better i slept and what kind of energy i had. At the lack of sounding like a commercial, working out really does make you feel better! As i sit here and eat my fish and veggies I am remembering how easy it is to eat right once you are in the habit. Its all about making the right choices and I have to remember that. Its like knowing “eat this and not that” type of thing. Well this is not going to be a long post today. I just got back from the gym and wanted to share with everyone how good i felt. I hope that everyone out there is doing well and all that they can to live their healthy active life styles!

be well everyone!

~Kae Rae

And shes back!

kaeraelmt — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 08:37:23 +0000

Hello world!

Ok so I’m sure that a lot of you thought that i fell off the face of the earth and this was no longer going to happen. Well if you guessed that, you were wrong! As we all know you have take what life throws at you and this is what i was trying to handle in the last 5 months. Many of you know that I have made the move to Cali and wow it was NOTHING like I thought it was going to be. To catch you all up really quick. I was in LA from 3/22 until 6/30. I really thought that when i got there I would be able to pick back up where things left off in NYC and I was so wrong. Work in LA did not pan out as well as i had wanted and when me and equinox decided to go our separate ways was when i lost my gym membership and my ability to afford to train. You forget that its soooooo expensive to train. you need your supplements, your gym, your clothes and above all your food. When you train so much you have to eat a lot and when you don’t have a job well you cant really eat like that. Yep that right did you catch that, I didn’t have a job. In fact I have not had a job until today. today was my 1st day of my new job and I am happy to report that I am once again working at a fitness center Its not a big as the equinox’s that I had come from that the really awesome part is that I am the ONLY female massage therapist and I am the 1st massage therapist that they have brought on board. I really hope that everything goes well here. I have a good feeling about this. So with the new job under my belt I am happy to day that I will be training again!!!!! Let me tell you i can’t freaking wait!! I have truly felt really bad about not working out and almost abandoning my goal. over these last few months I have had a lot of time to think about how much support you really need in your life in order to make it all work. If you are missing one thing it can all come crashing down. I remember one time when i was working out in tribeca w/ alone was telling his trainer how hard he was finding it to do everything in his day. From making and eating all the meals that he needed to, to working, working out and then all of your every day little things. His trainer then got to talking and brought to light that all most of the body builders and you see have a significant other that helps them out. I can attest to that that you really need to have help from all the people around you and yes it does help when you have a significant other to help you. No only are they there to pick up where you cant, you have someone to encourage you on a daily basis. I mean its not the deciding factor of weather someone is going to win something but I will be honest, it helps a lot!

So finally that I have a job and I finally have a place to work out again I am going to start this all over again. And when i say all over again its going to be all over again. I have lost most of the muscle that I had gained and all that hard work to lose my body fat yep its back! This time I know what I am up against and I think i will be able to take to it in a different light.

So here we go again folks. Lets see what we can do this time around!!

be well~

Kendra Rae

June is getting closer and I’m getting further away

kaeraelmt — Thu, 17 Apr 2008 00:47:04 +0000

yup thats right. I am scared to admit this but I dont know if i can do it now. Cali has really set me back a lot. I was sick for about a week and my body is a wreck! Its a lot harder to adjust than I thought. I am still doing as much as i can to get as ready as I can for june but I’m really scared that it might not happen. That is the last thing that I want right now but you have to be able to accept the truth in life. I have to be ready for my trainer to tell me what the deal is when he gets here. I was really upset that I was not able to go to the fitness camp in the beginning of the month, still have not found a new trainer or a good work out sched that works for me. My sched just got changed again and I think that this new one will be good for me. I really hope so. Things are hard out here. I don’t have the support of anyone. I don’t know any one here and I am being really cautious of who I chose to talk to and trust. i don’t really have anyone to talk to but my roommate and sometimes i wonder how much i can trust him. i wish I could import some ppl from new york. People out here just don’t get it. I think all the years of the sun in the gene pool out here has made a lot of ppl clueless. I know it will get better blah blah blah but right now it sux. I hate that I’m not training as hard as i should. I hate that I am not eating the way that i should. I hate that my life is so up in the air all the time while I have been here.

With that said im outie.

Sorry its been so long since I have said anything here. I will have more time in the coming day. I will do my damdest to keep everyone up to date.

Lots of love and I miss everyone!

~Kae Rae, LMT

little time little drive little support

kaeraelmt — Fri, 07 Mar 2008 22:54:36 +0000

so with me leaving town i have less and less time than i did before. I have started “slacking” for a lack of better term Now it is coming down to, either i work out or i don”t get enough sleep. work out or don’t get clothes washed. work out or don’t pack your stuff for cali. I’m really disappointed that i don’t have enough time time to do everything that i need to do. im almost at a loss for what to do. what am i to do? its not like i have huge breaks in my day where i can work out. when im on sched at work i’m almost always working now. I get an hr here and an hr there but that is not enough time to get a work out in. i need at least 90 mins if i have to massage after i work out. I mean i don’t have to shower but i don’t know about you but i would rather not smell for my clients get me? because of this i am starting to feel less and less support the closer time comes for me to leave. every time i see my trainer there is no longer the look of “yeah lets do this” i get looks of disappointment. i hope that he is not doing it to be mean and i’m sure hes not but its not making it easy on me. i have not had a lot of encouragement in the last few weeks. most of what i have been hearing, from everyone not just my trainer, is that im crazy that im slacking that im stressing other things to much and not thinking about training. i’m really starting to feel down on my self but at the same time i don’t know what to do about it. I mean i’m moving across the country. leaving everything that i have know as home for the last 8+years and saying goodbye. that is really hard. tomorrow (3\8) is 16 wks out from the contest. damn! time is coming faster than i want it to. i was feeling so prepared early on but i dont feel it as much right now. I dont feel that I am getting the right support all around either. I dont have me new diet, i dont have my suppliments, i don’t have a set training sched any more, it sux. i’m trying so hard not to freak out about it but i cant help it. the only thing that gets me by is that i KNOW that when i get to cali training is on for real. I don’t have any other option. Alone told me that if i’m not ready i cant not step on that stage. FTS man! i didn’t get this far to push it back. I’m gonna bust my ass hard core for the last leg of this prep time and i’m going to do it. I know that I can and will i just need to get to cali to do it. Out there I wont have any other commitments but work and working out. thats it. I can chose to do other things but that is not my focus. my focus is to win this damn contest even if it kills me in the process!!!!!!! I guess i am just getting ancy about moving and that is understandable. I just want it to happen already so i cant start my life up again

Hope that everyone out there is doing better than I am right now.

be well~

Kae Rae

The time has come

kaeraelmt — Sat, 01 Mar 2008 04:22:52 +0000

So the count down for the number of days with my trainer is on the last nite in nyc b4 i leave for cali is the 21 of march. kinda funny its 3.21, count down! So that makes it hard to deal with but i think i cant handle it. when i think about life in cali, all i ever think about is working and working out. having the time to do this all that its takes to really devote my time to my training. I am struggling right now with too much on my plate. I am making it work but man, its really hard on me. i think of how i can have more time to cook the kinds of food i need to be eating. The right portions and kinds! I just found out from a client of mine, that there is a farmers market 2 blocks from my job 2 days a week. AWESOME!!! I will be able to pick up fresh food at least one day a week for sure. As far as a new trainer, I’m sad at thinking that i may have to get one. I mean on the real its hard to do this when I’m in the same gym, across the country? eeekkkk! but i have faith. i have faith that i can make it to this contest. I have faith that i will be ready. All with the motivation and over see of my trainer, i am not alone in this……..well maybe kind…..

I hope that everyone is doing well out there.

Be well~

Kae Rae LMT

Over due Happy New Year!

kaeraelmt — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 21:16:09 +0000

I know it has been a very long time since I have updated anything and I am sorry.

So here is what has been going on. The whole month of jan was a mess. Between my trainer going on vacation and going on vacation my self, things were not as productive as we had liked. I had my second BMI on the 1st of this month and not so good. I did gain 7lbs of muscle but only lost a little over 1% body fat. I am now down to 25.6%. This is not that good. I need to change up the way I eat even more!! This blows :-\ I am eating even less carbs and I was before. I am only eating brown rice, sweet potato’s and whole wheat pasta . Now I have less than a 1/2 cup per meal. Can I tell you geez. This is going to be the worst part. I think that I am going to have to go into full contest diet even sooner than I had expected. The good thing is that I now only have 1, well still kinda 2, but for the most part 1 job. I will be able to cook my meals so I know that they are clean and I am able to dedicate more time to training. As of 1/28 i started training 2x a day. That lasted a whole week before my body said “i don’t think so” and I strained 3 things at once. Both my quads and one hamstring are hurting right now. The worst one is my right quad and let me tell you G-D! There is not a move that I make in my daily activity that doesn’t remind me that I am hurt. This really blow! I mean I just have to work on my arms for a few days. but legs are my fav thing to do!

On the bright side, I was posing in the mirror last night (yes I do do body building posing in the mirror. Got to get it right some how, no?) and there are deff changes to my body muscle wise. It’s kinda cool and it makes me really happy. Come by equinox and maybe I will flex for you ;-p

Well I hope that everyone out there is doing very well out there and as always thank you for reading

Be Well~

Kae Rae LMT

SAVE THE DATE

kaeraelmt — Sun, 30 Dec 2007 14:51:54 +0000

JUNE 28 2008 IS D DAY PEOPLE!!!! MARK YOUR CALENDERS I WANT TO SEE EVERYONE THERE. I CAN USE ALL THE SUPPORT I CAN GET.

Be well~

Kae Rae, LMT

What a flop!

kaeraelmt — Sun, 30 Dec 2007 14:46:07 +0000

So this week sucked for training. I have not missed this many days since I started! This whole month has been really hard. Btwn going to see my family, working the chair massage events and Christmas its been a real drag! I was unable to work out on Friday cuz I chose (I know it was my own fault) to sleep in to try and help out my sickness, which I’m still quite sick :’-[ I was unable to make it to the gym cuz in my mind the gym closed at 11, nope 10pm. I had to work the night shift @ the zoo till 930 so yep missed that day. Saturday I work 2 shifts. One at equinox in the am and the zoo in the night. Sometimes I can get a work out in but yesterday, not so much. Btwn blowing my nose and coughing up a lung it would not have been fun. Then here I am again at the zoo but today for a double which means, no gym time. I didn’t work out on Christmas eve cuz that was the real “cheat” meal. I didn’t make it to the gym on Christmas. Thought I was going to be able to work out but I actually had a massage so I didn’t mind to much, but still I missed gym time any way you look at it. I just feel like I have just taken 70 steps backwards I have never had this much time off and I know that I can not afford it. I know I’m sick and working 2 jobs, 7 days a week for the last 7 months has been really tough, I still feel like a HUGE waist of space. I always feel so much better after a work out no matter how I felt going into it. Also, Thursdays work out was ruff! I am not adding more weigh which is good but here comes sore time again. I don’t really mind to much. That is kinda my favorite part lol. I mean it is what it is and I can’t be to hard on my self but at the same time I can’t help it, its my nature to push my self hard. I will just have to cut my losses here and when the 1st of the year comes I will just know that I will have to work even harder in the next 6 months to make sure this does not impact me in the long run.

Hope everyone is doing well and has a happy and safe new year!!!

Be well~

Kae Rae, LMT

And on with the training

kaeraelmt — Fri, 28 Dec 2007 19:50:36 +0000

There are a lot of people who have been very supportive of me and my decision to undergo this whole thing. Going home to my family just made me realize more that this really is a lifestyle change. I keep reading all over, people do are bodybuilders and or figure competitors, all say that its a way of life and it really is. Never would I have ever though that this would be what I would be getting my self into come 2008. If you asked me this last year I don’t even know what I would have said. But what I can say now is thank you. Thank you to my trainer, thank you to my journalist, thank you to equinox and most importantly thank you to the people who are closest to me. They are the ones who have to put up w/ me when I am cranky cuz I’m low carbs and or fatigued and sick (like I am now :-\ ). I am great full for the friends that I have and those that I am making in the process. I can honestly say that this is one of the hardest things that I have undertake in my lift to date. As I like to say “My strength comes from with in” and I am truly testing my self to make sure!

Hope all is well with everyone else!!

Be Well~

Kae Rae, LMT